May 26, 2011
I Am Lost......
I am lost as a person; I have lost my zest for doing hair. I never thought there would come a day when I would start to question my knowledge of hair, the chemicals used to process the hair and knowing what levels of developer in order to achieve the color desired!
Years ago, while working in another salon I took some time off. When I returned to my job, I walked into the salon and burst into tears....I knew I couldn't work there any longer for whatever reason. I still enjoyed my co workers, the company I kept after hours; I just couldn't do the long commute and missing time with my daughter.
Here I am ten years later, and I'm burning my candle at both ends. I'm missing my daughter, she turns 18 on Saturday; she's moving out into the world and spreading her wings. The more I think about her turning 18 the more I remember being 18 and wanting to conquer the world and believing I could. Its too scary for me to think about being in her shoes and spreading my wings in this day and age. I worry about her in so many ways; she's still a bit naive in some ways and in others maybe a bit more worldly than I was at the same age.
I know I need to turn loose of the apron strings but I want her to know how much I love her no matter what she may or may not do; whether she disappoints her dad and I or not....we will still love her come what may. In the meantime, I have cut my days back at the salon to just one day. I'm also going on a road trip with my folks in July; for which I'm taking the entire month off. I am praying that this time I am taking wth my folks and husband will be the breath of life I need the most to find my old self again.
Years ago, while working in another salon I took some time off. When I returned to my job, I walked into the salon and burst into tears....I knew I couldn't work there any longer for whatever reason. I still enjoyed my co workers, the company I kept after hours; I just couldn't do the long commute and missing time with my daughter.
Here I am ten years later, and I'm burning my candle at both ends. I'm missing my daughter, she turns 18 on Saturday; she's moving out into the world and spreading her wings. The more I think about her turning 18 the more I remember being 18 and wanting to conquer the world and believing I could. Its too scary for me to think about being in her shoes and spreading my wings in this day and age. I worry about her in so many ways; she's still a bit naive in some ways and in others maybe a bit more worldly than I was at the same age.
I know I need to turn loose of the apron strings but I want her to know how much I love her no matter what she may or may not do; whether she disappoints her dad and I or not....we will still love her come what may. In the meantime, I have cut my days back at the salon to just one day. I'm also going on a road trip with my folks in July; for which I'm taking the entire month off. I am praying that this time I am taking wth my folks and husband will be the breath of life I need the most to find my old self again.
May 25, 2011
Yard Sale Complete
Well we survived our yard sale!
We sold my daughter's bunk bed/futon;
my parents put their above ground pool in the sale
that too sold quickly. I sold several of my mechanical hackamores,
a few sets of spurs and a few other miscellaneous
leather pieces that would accomodate a multitude
of saddles.
I think my favorite part of the sale was closing time on Saturday;
as I was dang tired.
Did I mention to you that I went to the clinic
on Friday to see the doctor for a head cold that
became much more than the sniffles?
No? I didn't menton that....well it turned out that I caught it before
it became a lot worse. The funny thing is the Dodgeman and I had the
same thing!! To make matters worse, we spent all day Saturday and Sunday
taking turns blowing our noses out behind the barn!!
So now we are on the mend; the last of our antibiotics
have been taken and we still are going through kleenex left and right.
The important thing is WE SURVIVED THE YARD SALE!!!
May 19, 2011
Still Prepping...
Tomorrow is our last day to prep for the Yard Sale on Saturday and Sunday. My daughter ElectricGirl purged her closets of quite a few things; and was sentimental about a few stuffed animals that had found their way into the "kids" box. She immediately picked out four or five stuffed animals and mementos of her childhood....a soft yellow rabbit for Easter one year, and several teddy bears and a coin purse filled with polished rocks.
I found a couple of shorts sets that my mom had bought her for summer when she was 4 years old, one was yellow and pink and the other was purple. Both of them had Tarzan and Jane on them; of course I have a friend who has a set of twin girls so those will go to them for their birthday next weekend. Still going through a ton of stuff, mostly things hidden away in closets held onto for way too many years. Some from my first fiasco of a marriage!!
My daughter has decided she wants to keep her twin/full futon bunkbed and asked us not to sell it. Her dad DodgeMan and I have other ideas; like not having to arrange the bedroom around the bed. Or the fact that we won't have something to pile excess blankets and pillows on and wonder where did something disappear and how come we didn't look there?? But most of all, the idea that I can put my computer desk in the back room and make it a proper office to do my research on family geneaology.
We also made a "pact" with each other that whatever doesn't sell is going to charity....we are not storing it any longer! And that my friends is why as people we spend our entire lives "collecting" things only to turn around one day and say, "I have to sell some of this stuff!"
I found a couple of shorts sets that my mom had bought her for summer when she was 4 years old, one was yellow and pink and the other was purple. Both of them had Tarzan and Jane on them; of course I have a friend who has a set of twin girls so those will go to them for their birthday next weekend. Still going through a ton of stuff, mostly things hidden away in closets held onto for way too many years. Some from my first fiasco of a marriage!!
My daughter has decided she wants to keep her twin/full futon bunkbed and asked us not to sell it. Her dad DodgeMan and I have other ideas; like not having to arrange the bedroom around the bed. Or the fact that we won't have something to pile excess blankets and pillows on and wonder where did something disappear and how come we didn't look there?? But most of all, the idea that I can put my computer desk in the back room and make it a proper office to do my research on family geneaology.
We also made a "pact" with each other that whatever doesn't sell is going to charity....we are not storing it any longer! And that my friends is why as people we spend our entire lives "collecting" things only to turn around one day and say, "I have to sell some of this stuff!"
May 17, 2011
Time to Purge.. and Drown
Folks its that time of year again....the purging of our closets, homes and memories. You know what I'm saying.......Yard Sales!!!
And we hit the yard sales rain or shine.....Drown or Roast? It's all about the "die hards" those who scour the newspapers, want ads and word of mouth. Its not what you know but rather who you know that gets you happy and drooly about what you might find at those sales?
Several years ago, the Dodgeman and I went to a yard sale/estate sale and found a hand woven wool Navajo rug that had no tags on it to say who and where it was made (that's what you look for) and bought it for $45!!!! If I chose to have it appraised.....I'm sure it'd be worth a lot more than $45....maybe closer to $4500.00?
The idea of selling it is not applicable; we bought it before we were married and trying to add to our collection of furnishings. To sell would be to disown our early years....and I know that someday we will be in a house where we'll need the rug again to either hang on the wall or lay on the floor.
So this weekend, mom and the Dodgeman and I are ridding our closets, home and memories of some much needed "stuff" and having a yard sale. If you don't hear from me for awhile.....you need to know that preparing for a yard sale is NOT for Sissies!!!
And we hit the yard sales rain or shine.....Drown or Roast? It's all about the "die hards" those who scour the newspapers, want ads and word of mouth. Its not what you know but rather who you know that gets you happy and drooly about what you might find at those sales?
Several years ago, the Dodgeman and I went to a yard sale/estate sale and found a hand woven wool Navajo rug that had no tags on it to say who and where it was made (that's what you look for) and bought it for $45!!!! If I chose to have it appraised.....I'm sure it'd be worth a lot more than $45....maybe closer to $4500.00?
The idea of selling it is not applicable; we bought it before we were married and trying to add to our collection of furnishings. To sell would be to disown our early years....and I know that someday we will be in a house where we'll need the rug again to either hang on the wall or lay on the floor.
So this weekend, mom and the Dodgeman and I are ridding our closets, home and memories of some much needed "stuff" and having a yard sale. If you don't hear from me for awhile.....you need to know that preparing for a yard sale is NOT for Sissies!!!
May 10, 2011
Stay Tuned.....part 2
Here I am again....
writing my little heart out
wondering still what the heck is wrong with my
computer keyboard?
I do know that hopefully, by tomorrow
I will be liking my hair better.
I have found a new liking for.....carrot chips!
Carrot chips are already sliced
fresh carrots in the produce section;
I can eat the WHOLE BAG in one sitting!
They are better for me in several ways;
1. They aren't fattening 2.They have fiber in them
something I don't get enough of these days.
3. They're good for me and you!
My clothes are fitting better;
I have realized that I'm still slender but in a more womanly way.
A size 12 jeans is not considered "fat"but rather, my favorite: curvy!
I still want to run away; but for reasons like I need a vacation and soon.
I have hit the "wall" as a friend so eloquently
described my feelings and my mental health is so important in everything I do.
There are day I still want to stay in bed like ALL DAY!! But that is non productive, so I focus on the laundry which I think is breeding overnight just to mock me! But I will get even with the laundry; and it will all come out in the end! There are still lots of parts to my decisions and I'm not done yet.
May 5, 2011
Stay Tuned.....
I'm feeling like a train wreck today; I don't like my clothes, or my hair
and I'm having issues with my computer key board!
To top it all off.....
I WANT TO RUN AWAY.....
FAR AWAY!!
Somewhere that no one knows my name;
where I have no responsibilities,
no job drama, and can comb the beach any time day or night.
And when I come back from this place of rest
and respite I can decide if I want to quit my job,
stay at home....sell Avon....or sell designer purses!
At this point in time....
I am not making any rash decisions.
I recognize that I am....
B U R N E D O U T!!!!!
As to what happens next...
well, stay tuned to find out more!!
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